The Shame Game

I am tired of this game.

This game is making me sick.

I am tired of this futile blame,

This blame has no logic.

I fucking hate this game,

this game is taking away my shine,

I don't even know the head coach's name,

But I do know that our values do not align.

I no longer want to play this game,

can we stop now?

This game is an abiding pain,

I'm not sure how much more I can allow.

I am tired of this game,

Why won't it end?

Is it because I complained?

Or was it something that I did?

I am ready to exit this game,

is there something so inherently erroneous with how I am portraying?

I’m sick of this self-deprecation, yet I am choosing to stay the same.

Am I addicted to the self-betraying?

Please let me know how I can stop playing this game.

I can no longer take the late nights,

overthinking and falling back into addictions that no longer serve my name,

just to numb this internal parasite.

Am I just bored? Or lonely? Maybe I just need a good cry?

Something is wrong with me, can somebody save me?

No matter how much I pray to the sky,

It's always the same thing.

I am tired of this game,

This little game called shame.